Same deal as last time. I do apologize if this offends you (though this one isnt nearly as offensive), and if you have a comment, dont marr the writing by putting it here, send it to me in a message. Thank you.

Also, this was cut short due to many distractions, including music from the hall and my roomie comming in a half an hour before I wanted to finish. I apologize if it feels undone or incomplete, but I was really distracted at the end, and he doesnt seem to have even noticed. Man, I need to schedule these with people next time...

The only thing that was edited was one name.
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SO I finally decided to sit down and do another free write, and let me tell you, it has been hell finding the time. In fact, I shouldn't even be doing this, considering I have to do a bit of homework, but it doesn't matter, I'll get it done, no worries mate.
Ha, I haven't had outback steak house in a while...I used to love that place until they added tomatoes to my favorite dish there...and I hate tomatoes...
In fact, earlier today AW screwed up and put tomatos on my burger...It annoyed me until they gave me a free meal, which was nice...I didn't even ask for one. But the lady was nice when she saw that my burger clearly wasn't plain...
Anyhow, this totally isn't what I expected to be righting about, after all, free association is supposed to get down to what really matters, right? Tis what freud thought, no matter who believes him or not. Man, it is hard to keep up with my mind...sdidn't I run into that problem last time?
For those of you who don't know, I already did one of these in early august. I needed to get stuff of my chest and I needed an SNN, but the desire ended up being overcome by my need to utilize the bathroom...but I'm fine in that respect tonight...at least I hope I am. I better be. There is no way I am interrupting this, although I am leaving thoughts in the dust, which is a problem....
Anyway...speaking of problems, I have a few, don't I. Well...I actually don't have the two problems that are giving me the most worries, or shall I say three...those are actually problems my friends are having that I cannot helpo them on...and I feel so bad, despite the fact that there is nothing I can do about it...it just annoys me soo...and I don't know why. Its not like there is anything I can do about any of them...but that angers me. I want to help my friends, I want to know whats wrong, but I cant ask because I wont get an answer. I really do want to askwhat I missed when I drifted apart from you for a short while...something big happened and I completely missed it. You needed me and I want; there and theoreticallty, I could have helped you and stop the problem, but no, that didn't happen, now did it. When you needed me, I was nowhere to be seen. Well, that'll never happen again. You are one of my closest friends and I don't ever wish to abandon you ever again. I realize it wasn't even my fault, as you tell me not to blame it on myself (as does psychology), but I still do...and I feel like I could have stopped it, but, then again, I barely know ther problem and I don't know the solution and I couldn't have helped, even in retrospect...sigh...
'Ha...essence yelled at me for making her sigh in TLOK...I find that rather amusing. Perhaps she sighs more than she thinks (or less than I think or boith), but we'll never know, now will we...oh well....
Tlok is coming along not so great, btw...I keep on not being motivated because I am not actually by any of the characters anymore...I feel like I'm leaving you in the dust by writing sptoeretlale (had to pause for the spelling), and its true that I am, but there isn't much I can honestly do about that...does that make me a bad person?
Again, you would tell me no, I need to stop thinking down on myself...but then again, you do the same thing. I think we bother bother eachoter with our negative tendancies...but we don't fight that much...hahaha...oh well...
Anyway...yeah...I got nothing now...though that was impressive for a bit...I just went on and on and on and ond and n jfjhdfknm...
Damn, that didn't work ...
That didn't last long either...oh well...
I keep on running out of thoughts, and I skip some as I type others and for some reason I can hear tyler lecturing me about luck, which is odd because he never actually has...but nevertheless, I can hear him saying things like "no, luck is bad<' and the like...
Wow,...that was coherent...non.
Not, I manre...
Mean...I mean...
Wow...I am not typing well, am I
That another problem I ran into last time...I just wanst typing well,,,but lok at me now...I'm going well., anad I don't think I;ve made any mistakes recently...no...I looked at the screen and was proven worng...oh well...it could be worse...
Damn, I do say that I lot, and I always think that right after I say (or type) it...hmm...odd, n'est-ce pas? Oh well, c'est la vie...
La vie de moi, at least...
Hahaha...I just rememebered when derek said that about Rachel, and she punched me (comme d'habitude) because we were speaking French...I think that was funny...
Hmm...my neck is starting to cramp, which is a problem, sint it...
Let me readjust me seating arrangements...there we go...didn't help the neck, but helped posture in general...
I remember what Tauberry was saying about posture, not that I really ever listened to about half of what he said...seing as that was the half that I would reply to him with bald jokes...call it our way of communicating...
Yeah...I have to censor myself here, so I am going to skip my current though...
I said skip it...think of something else...it isn't working, I can feel it coming out...
Nvm...it has been shrouded by another problem, one of my friend derreks...
That is two "r"s on purpose, just an fyi...
He has been having many problems as of latew, and again, I am sad that I cannot help him...
Wow...how did I do that...I almost inserted a bullet...that was ooddd...
Must have hit control or alt something...wow...
I love ctrl Z, btw...
Best thing ever...Id use it now...but that would be a stupid thing to do when free writing...
Damn, I have to sneexe...wiat...wait...ok, itsa gone now...that's good...
It would have really distracted me...
Damn, I need to get earplugsa for this next time...the hall isn't exactly quiet...
And that sucks for me...
Well, considering I;ve already started, stopping would be bad, now wouldn't it...I really needed toi do this, and I set out the time specifically to do this, there is no way I'm stopping until the designated time...whi is still a ways to got...ok?
Ok. Good, glad I have an agreement with myself...
Crap, Is Hiro's windo open? Are those outside sounds? Damnital.., those are...cant they tell I'm doing a freewrite here? Gah, the gall of some people...
Gall is a funny word, it looks weird and is pronounced weird...
Apparently, I have back problems, so says the random demonstration from psych class...
I get to do psych experiments tomorrow...one is about morals and the other is about penguins...
Damn, I juts lost the game...
Hahaha...if anyone reads this, they'll be pissed at that...if they play the game, of course...which is unlikey...
But Rachel will probably find me And punch me after reading thast, because she does and she has done that before when I lost the game and caysed her to loose...
Its rather funny that way, sitn it...losing the game causes violence...well, not real violence, Rachel violence...the kind that is only harmfull to me when I get RSD from it...hahaha...she'll punch me for that too...
Don't believe me? She totally will...I could do an experiment on that...but I wont...
It would be hard to do anyway...without multiple Rachel smiths, it would be rather difficult...
And now I am thinking of the stochasitcity episode of radio lab, and the beginning thing with the ballon and how the radio show now has that name, thanks to radio lab, which wouold then be thanks to celena and prof hatcher for simulatnaiously showing/telling me about radio lab and compelling me to get the podcast, wich I did...and which I love...it is awesome...
Hahaha...wow...
Which...
Wich...
Why is it impossible to starve in the desert? Because of all the sand which is there! Hahaha...
Wow, bad joke from psych book...
Anywho, the psych book helped me realize something about someone again today...it mad eme realize that ********** has really high self esteem, which leads him to be aggressive and to think he is right and he can relate everything to himself...which is incorrect. Relating the fact that something that was horribly disfiguring and truly harmful being removed by almost a miracle and something not too bad being replaced by something that will cut my life shorter than most everyone else I know...not a sound comparison...wait,m did I say said person's anem...damn, Imma have to censor this one too...I had to censor the last one...
I do think I am finally over her...she is now out of my head, which is a good thing. My head is not where she belongs...she has her own needs, wants, problems, aspirationsa and whatnot that don't realte to me and mine.,..she shouldn't be in my head and it is a good thing wshe is out...but is she...if I am typing about her now, is she really out?
Yes.
Wow...that was simple...and why couldn't I do this about a year and a half ago? Oh yeah, because I was a different person then...speaking of a year and a half ago...
I got nothing...I coudnt even tell you what month a year and a half ago was, and I'm not going to stop to figure it out...that woul be silly and fallous...truly bothm truly both...
Wow, this is making my eyes tired...but that's what happeneswhen you are in a rom with no light but the computers backlight...
All of a sudden, the screen goes dark...white text appears on the screen, letter by letter...
I know what you did last summer...
Wow...I have an overactive imagination right now, that came out of nowhere...
Wow...Three brothers the novel is stalling, I cant seem to think of things for it...which is a problem...but luckily I have notes so that if I ever forget, I can refer to them later to get the story back in my head...
I do love writing...I'd be an English major if I thought I had to be to write...but I don't...that doesn't mean I wont take English classes, but I only have the one atm, and I don't have time for the others...
Btw, I'lln stop being quagsire on the tenth, after a full month...I may return to myself or become something new, but I wont be a quagsire anymore...nor will I be a wooper...and I probably wont be another pokemon, though it is undecided...
Hey, Rachel still has my ds...oh well...I wouldn't have the time to play it anyway...last time I played it was before the radio show on Friday...which seems to be the only thing I have to look forwar to anymore...
How dismal does that make my life - that I only have a radio show to look forward to? Well, that's not true...every day (well, at least four of them), I look forward to seeing Rachel in psych...I enjoy seeing my friends in class...I wish Tyler and I had a class...and that Derek and I had a class other than French...but oh well...for my closest friends here, it could be worse...
Damn, I do say that a lot, don't I...oh well
Wow, I also say that a lot too...oh well though, not much I casn do to change my habits...
Well, that depends who you ask...Prof hatcher would say we can through training...and I should look up thast video.. I know it couldn't possibly turn me off of meat (though that would be impressive if it could), but I should still look it up and write about it for a point...after all, I sadly enough don't always get the questions done on time...which I should be doing now, but hey, I have peace and quiet and people who would bother me are at the play or on the fifth floor (or looking for the person on the fifth floor) and the door says do not disturb in two places...but last time I said that, no one listened...because people don't listen to me...
Again, sad but true...and again, you would yell at me for being adowner, wouldn't you...but I don't care...I can be a downer at times...it is just how I am...and soi are many people...its better to be a downer than an upper...
UPer...
Hahahsa...
Wow...bad joke, I do apologize...
Wait, I didn't even make a joke,, oh well...
I am actually amazed,,,I haven't gotten that angry in this one yet, and I was really adamant by the end of my last one...maybe that shows that ripon really has changed me...
Of course, I was adamant in the last one because someon treated me like shit and then ignored the fact (and still ignores the fact that he treats me like shit some of the time...), but I suppose that is beside the point...now isn't it. There are better things to do than complain about how crappy things are...
See, really have changed...I would have dwelled on that had this been three months ago...and I did...but I am not...I am still just as annoyed and depressed, but it isn't coming out as aggression, it coming out as...well...annoyance and depression. Its not chanign forms, which is good or bad, depending on your view. Mine says that it is good, like a lot of the habits I am developing here, like not drinking much sod and drinking water and eatin apples...then again, I had a soda with my AW unch today and I haven't had a dinner and is that music from the hall? What the hell? What part of Do Not Disturb don't people get? I mean, have they no respect for the other members of the hall? I should tell them to shut it off, but it isn't that bad (despite it being hip hop, from what I can tell), and I can cope, and they wouldn't listen anyway and it would stop the writing and I cant do that because it is integral that I keep writing and my back is getting sweaty and my neck still hurts and is the music getting louder? No, my typing is getting softer...I'd shout, but my voice feels a bit horse atm...I mean hoarse...but anyway, it could be worse...damn, said it again...'
Oh well...
Damn, again...oh well again...
I'm am not going to fall into that loop, I shouldn't...still, that music is beginning to annoy me..I wish they would turn it off, but again, they wouldn't listen even if I TOLD THEM...OH WELL, C'EST LA VIE...IT COULD BE WORSE...
DAMN, AGAIN...WAIT...CAPS LOCK, DAMN...just SEC...ok...that's good...
I hopre,, at least...
Wow...ypos dying down or picking up, I so cannot tell...
Hey, Imma be in the brawlers tourney...and Imma be Lucas..and I don't know why that popped into my haed...oh, because I almost typed PK when typing picked...ah, that makes sense now...
Backwards thinking =normally does...damn, I think the music did get louder...wait, now I cant hear it...no, Now I can...damn, this is annoying me...seriously, I need earplugs next time I do this...it annoys me so...well, not so much, I gfuess I am being overly dramatic,...
Last time, I would've been really adamnt about this, but now, not so much...damn, I think I am becoming a nicer person...that's a good thing, right? It better be...You know, I love being politically talkative, but I don't like where it is leading recently, and it seems that most people here blindly follow...that's why derek is awesome, he doesn't blindly follow, nor does he quote comedians for reference...still, he like everyone else talks to much about it. We are here to learn, npot to debate which side is better and whatnot...grrr...that music is kinda getting on my nerves...Now ben, be nice about this, don't get angry...ok, that's better...the happty...well, not the happy, the nonaggression is back, lets say that. You know, I have to wonder...in those friend questions, one of them says "would ben ranes bail you out from jail?" and I would bail most of my friends out from jail, assuming I have the money, so I want to know who said no...but oh well...I am not interested enough to anser the ridiculous amount of questions to know...I am happy with the odd social interview questions...though I am a tad apprehensive about some...some I don't want to answer, or I do, but I don't want people to see my answer. After all, I did decide to swear off of relationships, which means not pursuing the one I really would like to...well, that and I don't think it is the best idea atm for other reasons...she needs to be away from relationships more than I do...then again, it doesn't matter. I am too afraid of rejection and the like to ever actually get up the nerve to ask, and I'll be the first to admit it. That, and the whole crappy commutnicationt hing is what damned me last year...but that is, again, beside the point, I need to be focusing on my studies...
Says the man blowing them off to do a free write...ha!
Well...its been an hour now, give or take, and last time I think I went longer and typed less, but that is not the point, now is it...wait, I think the music is done...REJOICE!
That was not in caps lock, btw...I don't actually use caps lock that much, I am a "hold down the shift key" kind of person, but that Is beside the point...
Damn, I say that a lot too...there are a lot of things I say a lot, aren't there...oh well, ti ould be worse (I did that on purpose, fyi)...
Hahaha,,,wow. Am enjoying this way too much and...am I in italics? Whoops,...not that people will see that, but that was kinda funny...I aleways do thayt, pushing control instead of shitft, then I have to control+z it all to hell...imagine that power...oh wait, I already did...hah...I just call it reverse of reverse, not control z...
Anyway, I stlll need three powers, don't i...but I can figure them out later. I have untilsunday to finish 5.5, after all, and I did get one power today, which I am pround of. Man, my FYS is showing up a lot in 5.5, isn't it...hahaha, that's kinda funny...
In any case, I should stop this soon, but I wont...I don't want too...voices in the hall...gone now...no bgack...sounds like paul and eric...but it cant be, they're at the play, which I am not at...and yet I could have been...oh well...and the music is back now too...what the heck, why now...damn...and now my roomie is about to enter...and he is entering, and the music is so much lousder since the door is oipen and a light is now and hes walking around and I am so disteracted right now itrs now even funny and he turned on another light.,..well, I geuss I am done now...lost all my thoughts...still, for an hour and five minutes, its not that bad...

Bye bye.